Apr. 27th, 2012

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My Dearest One,

I've not put it quite this way before, but there is something you have done for me that has value beyond measure.  Do you remember my telling you that I firmly believe that each of us is alive by virtue of the other?  There is a case of this fresh in my mind.

For three years, I was constantly close to death by my own hand.  I was out of options.  I remember sitting at my desk, crying "I want to run away, but there is nowhere to run."  I was still in denial, knowing what I was doing, knowing what I had been doing for four decades, but still not comprehending it.

Then, you came back into my life.  You held a mirror to me, showing me how I had traded away pieces of myself, one by one, even my very soul, in exchange for empty promises of companionship and security.  You showed me how I took my worth from others, just enough to keep me around for the next round of degradation.  You turned me into a lake of tears for three months, but it was the best thing anyone has ever done for me.  You showed me that the only place I was going to find worth was within myself.  As painful as it was, you started me on the path to healing.  You turned my life around.  Again.

You, my Dearest One, literally saved my life.  How could I ever show you my gratitude?

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